when it does??!!??

I can do it...and I can make it happen... But the possibility of it not happen doesn't scare me more than the possibility of it happening!!! I see clearly through the whirlwind of could have, should have, and would haves... But disappear in an endless cloud of when I do??? The question of what's next sits in the pit of my stomach, slowly creeping up like vomit... I'm pushing my tongue to the roof of my mouth trying to keep it inside...but eventually it will take over..rendering me powerless over my heart...and even though I will soon feel better...knowing that it cannot always remain a mystery....I fight the momentary feeling of my soul being purged for my destiny is bigger than me...my life is not my own..and submission does not make me weak..now my head has the idea...to bad its my heart that's determined to fight!!!

It Rained Last Night (Abortion Poem) - Jasmine & Alexis (Urban Word NYC)...

The number one killer of African Americans is not AIDS...it is not Murder... it is not any other sexually transmitted disease.. but its ABORTION... we don't need ANYONE to kill us.. were doing it ourselves!!

"friends..how many of us have them?"

i understand that sometimes when you are caught in the middle of an argument between mutual friends.. however i guess the title friend means different things to different people...to me friendship means that you are a support to each other... that you stand up for each other when they cant or are not able to stand up for themselves... well i have found myself in a tough situation i wouldn't ever say what i wouldn't do...but i will say what my heart and mind believe in.. and i cannot ever see why there is a reason to betray a friend...maybe i haven't lived enough..or maybe I'm just realistic!!

Love

There has been a lot of things in my life that have caused me fear... persuiting future goals... moving away from my family... but all of those things i eventually got over.. but the scariest thing in this world to me is being in love... yes i have be in "love" thinking that the guy i was dating would eventually be my husband.. and at that very moment that seemed like a reality.. but as i have grown and matured as a woman i realize that eventually we would be no more.. and it would be in the best interests of both of us.... as i am looking back at my life i realize that i have grown a great deal... God has truly shown me different things and given me a new look at life... a dear friend asked me when did i think i would be ready for a serious relationship and i realized that this was the goal i was working for... but I didnt know when i had reached that point... is it something that you enter to hoping that you'll get it right... and if you do then your good.. but if by chance you are not equipted to emotionally love someone that you really care about..is it worth everyone involved being hurt????